What are you thankful for today?

Just a little reminder (to the three people who read this) to be thankful in prayer! Too many of us are only active in prayer when we need help with something. Yes, the Bible says "ask, and you shall receive what you ask for" but it also says to be thankful! We forget to be thankful everyday for the blessings we have been given. So here is your reminder: Thank the Lord everyday for things that you value in your life, for He has given them to you!

Happy 2012!

I remember this time last year being so excited for 2011 and all of the "dreams" I had that I was going to turn into reality. My dream of moving certainly happened but instead of NYC, I ended up on the opposite coast! I am glad though, because everything happens for a reason and exactly the way it should happen. I LOVE living so close to the beach. I am also making some new friends and meeting some very nice people! My newest friend is Aliyah. She is the same age as I am and works in one of the courts downtown. She is such a sweet heart and a truely genuine person. We have been meeting up for meals and movies and having a great time! I have also been hanging out with some work friends and also other friends from Texas. It is hard to enjoy my time here though when I keep going back home or on other vacations! But I only plan on going home two more times until my birthday so I am excited about what is to come!

Ya know...

Backstreet's Back Alright! JK, it's just me :)

Sorry, I have been MIA for TWO MONTHS! Yikes. I am not good at this blogging thing, apparently! Let's see, what has happened... basically getting all settled in to my new place of residence :) and getting to see one of my favorite cousins about once a week! Record breaking! I love it. I have made some friends at work, along with meeting some of Christi's friends from her work and her church as well. It has really been great. When the weather has been nice I usually go hang out at the beach, but since we are in the "winter months" it has been a little chilly for a swimsuit! I have found some other Cowboys fans here and they meet at this one bar for every game to watch together. It is awesome! There is about 40 of them! I love it! I also found some cool dog parks but I have yet to take the puppies there. Right now they are back home with my parents. Mom basically begged me to leave them until I come home for Christmas :) They love it because they can play with Lauren's dogs. I miss them though :( but I go back home in ten days! I can't wait! I am ready to see everyone again and spend New Years with my favorites! Ok I gotta run but I promise it won't be two months before I am back!

Dear God, It's me, Lindsay.

This post is not going to be very fun and informational about my new residence. It is more of me just needing to vent. They say when you throw things out there then they are more likely to change. So, here goes! First of all, I just want to preface this by saying that I am not sad or in a dark place. I am simply unsettled and feeling discontent with the way my twenties have gone. I remember when I was 21 and the world seemed perfect. I had a plan to by married by 25-26 and start expanding the family by 29. I am not saying I regret the decision I made at all. The things that have happened since then have shaped me. I would be a completely different person if I had stuck to that plan. I would be selfish, conceited, and I would not have some of the best friends I have today. I would also still be taking forgranted the relationship I had. I learned a lot about treasuring the times you have with people because you never know when they will walk out the door. I thought I "had it in the bag" and I quickly learned that I am in no way, shape, or form in control of other people's feelings. Since then, I have been kind of reckless. I was hurt so bad that I have done everything possible to be the one who "loves less" so in the end I am not the one hurting. I think I have missed out on people beacause of my own fears. I have not found "that feeling" I used to have because I do not allow myself to get that involved. It is hard. Many people I know are married and some are starting families, and I am still stuck in this rut. As much as I try not to worry and not to stress, it only makes it worse. My greatest fear is that I am alone for so long because I am searching for something that I keep running from instead of allowing myself to take a chance. I have this list. A list of everything I want to find in someone. Some things on the list are obviously not as important and if it came down to it, there would be exceptions. Other things though, are not negotiable. It is not about finding someone with all of these "things" and getting married and starting a family. It is about having that relationship again. The one where you know that person absolutely adores you and you adore them in the same way. The person that you can sit and talk for hours on end and there is never a dull moment. Before you realize it, hours have passed. The person that calms you down when you get angry and frustrated, instead of making the matter worse. It doesn't seem like too much to ask for, but it is the hardest thing to find. Ya know that saying, "it is better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all." I am thinking I would rather have never loved yet in my life because then I would be satisfied a little easier. Again, I am not saying I miss "that person" at all. I just miss the relationship. Yes, there were problems, hence why it ended. But that is my standard now because I know how great I can get. It is not something you can write down in a list of things you are looking for. I have a list. Some of those things are nonnegotiable, but it is more about a connection and personalities that compliment each other rather than things in a list. I just struggle, because I know where I want to be, and I feel like I am just going to be in this place I am at for a long time.

It has begun!

So much has happened since my last post! I was only talking about relocating and now I AM HERE! So obviously, I got the job, had a going away party and moved to California! Of course I miss everyone back home, but I also love it out here and I am really enjoying myself. I live two miles from the beach, so I find myself there on the weekends. I am in the process of finding a church to attend to meet some people. I also found a few local events and runs to participate in! Lauren is already coming to visit in a few weeks. I can't wait! I miss her so much. Then I will be home for Thanksgiving and Christmas so that will help with the adjustment. Gotta run. Hopefully it won't be three months until the next post!

Do I see BEACHY sunsets in my near future??

Possibly!

I applied to some Raytheon jobs in El Segundo, CA. It is on the coast just south of Santa Monica. You can see the beach from the office. I want that. I also want to walk outside to 80 degree weather instead of 110 degree weather. Sitting in the sand watching the sun set over the water would also not be a bad thing. I am really not seeing any cons to this! Maybe the cost of living. I know it is expensive, but I looked online at apartments and it is not that much more. We will see. I have only applied so far. I did get a call from the talent group about my applications. Now it is all up to the managers. I am just crossing my fingers that this works out. If not, then it just wasn't in my cards. The only thing I worry about is flying there and home to visit with the two munchkins. I know I can carry them on in one cage but most people drug them while they fly. I am scared to drug them. Oh well, I will cross that bridge when I get there. Until then, everyone cross your fingers with me!! :)