Like Colbie says "I've been runnin' around"

May has been BUSY! I remember when Mom first bought our rooms for the cruise and it seemed like it was so far away! Now it is 3 DAYS away! So Pumped to the Max! And so ready for 10 days of relaxation with my family. I have been so busy lately that I usually forget what day it is.

I did remember to attend the Mesquite Rodeo when EYB was in town :) Love those guys and their crew. It was a pretty interesting evening too. I knew in my head it was supossed to rain but that was the last thing I thought about as I stood outside for the show, and also as I parked my car in a dirt field. No grass. Just dirt. Then came storms. Heavy rain. Hail. Thunder. Lightning. Folding chairs rolling across the stage. But the show went on! It was acoustic but awesome. And I got to see one of my dear friends Philip. Then I got stuck in the field...it was a mess. A very muddy mess. My tiny car had no chance. Luckily a kind boy with a very large truck pulled my car to the road. So grateful for him.

Mother's day weekend we ended up doing a VIP tour of Cowboy's Stadium. It was pretty awesome. You get to see Jerry Jones's "perch" where he sits to watch the games and then the locker rooms and press room. They even take your picture on the star. They tell you that you can spend as much as time you want, once the tour is over, on the field and you can throw the football or play around. They did not, however, tell you that they do not want you on the field goal posts...

Haha. Always causing trouble.

Here are a few others from that day:

Dad and I in Jerry's chair for the games.

Me taking questions from the press.

Nate in the area where the Cowboys run through to get to the field.

Lu and I on the star :)

And that is my father... he is special lol.

The following weekend I boarded a plane to San Antonio to spend a few days in Poth with my cousin Brittani, her neighbors and her State Trooper buddies. She has to go back to Afghanistan for the Army so of course there was a going away party! It was a great send off for her and I pray she comes back safely.

Here are some pictures from the party and that weekend:

Yep, Britt got a bounce house to keep the kids occupied... it really was for the adults to make fools of themselves inside!

We made Cake Pops! We even made CLR dice (such a fun game!)

The neighbor kids made these posters for her. Sooo adorable!

It was such a great weekend, that turned out to end on an opposite note. I got word as I was boarding my flight home that my grandma, Momo, went to the ER overnight and was now in ICU. She was not doing well. The past few days have been scary. The worst feeling I have ever felt in my 28.5 years of life. But today is better. She was moved out of ICU and Mom said she is doing much better! The Lord sure does answer prayers.

Phil 4:6-7

Whoa!

So it has been a while since I have graced the three readers of my blog with my presence! Sorry folks. I have been quite the busy bee. Just to catch everyone up: I moved out of Dallas and into Nate and Lauren's house back in good old Rowlett. Work has been crazy. Life has been somewhat peaceful. I went to visit some of my good friends in Nashville, and I have also spent a lot of much needed time with the family.
I feel pretty good. I mean of course I can always complain about the usual pants getting tighter and how I hate driving to McKinney. But, all in all, life is pretty good. I wish I could spread this contentment with other people though. Maybe they are trying to make conversation by complaining about everything wrong in their lives, but to me, that is not conversation. I know we all need to vent but I feel like people can be so selfish and it is all about them being happy. They think that their unhappiness can be fixed by some person just doing the right thing. (I guess I should listen to my own words because I would't be calling folks out if they had just not been so negative!) I just wish I could somehow get these people to see how insignificant some of the stuff they complain about is. I know this sounds so cliche, but seriously, there are families without homes, food, and clothing, or countries that have whole populations being contaminated by their water supply. Just stop for one moment and realize that you are nothing but a tiny speck in a huge world. The world revolves around the greatest love of all and we should be helping other people in need and not automatically jumping to anger when something does not go our way. Instead, take some time to think about why you are angry. Why did something upset you? If the answer is, because I am selfish and I wanted what I wanted when I wanted it. Think of the people who lost their jobs and homes because of this economy. Do you think they wanted that? We are all still living on this planet for a reason. Do you want to live your live being mad all the time that you did not get what you wanted? Life would be much better if you acknowledge what you do have and be grateful you were given another day of life. Another day of life to reevaluate your purpose and maybe help someone else out instead of always focusing on me, me, me.

You have the choice each day to either be a crab or a happy dolphin jumping around singing all day!

Your choice. I choose to hang out with dolphins :)

Endometriosis? What IS that?

Those were my exact words. That was the result of my surgery. She found endometriosis in there. She was able to burn off what she could see, but I am still having pain, so there must be more in there somewhere. Bad news is, there is not a cure for it. There are things you can do to keep it from growing as fast as it would normally, but as far as getting rid of it, there is nothing. So I basically live as normally as possible and take pain pills when I need to. The past 7 months of horrible weeks, then better weeks, then another horrible week, is going to forever be the norm. I can't help but be frustrated with this. I was trying to train for a half marathon last fall and that was put on hold because of the pain. Now that this is not something I can get rid of, I may never be able to run a half or another full marathon again. That makes me sad. I found something I enjoy and I can use to destress and I am now limited in it. At least it started after I got one marathon under my belt. That, I am thankful for. But what about the future? What if I am at Disney World with my family and I can't walk and enjoy that time because I am in pain. All these things are going through my head and I feel so down. I am on a treatment plan to keep it from growing so hopefully that will help. We shall see.
I just have to remind myself everyday that this is all part of the plan. God is using me with this and I just have to trust Him.

Crazy Love

I have been hearing people talk about this book "Crazy Love" by Francis Chan, so Friday after work I went and picked up a copy. I started reading it that night and then when I woke up Saturday I read the rest of it. I could not put it down. Everything I had planned to do Saturday during the day was all of a sudden not as important as finishing the book. It was a huge eye opener for me. In the foreword there is a sentence that says "if someone were to look at your life would they call you a Christian?" that started the process of really examining who I am. I come from a church based family environment: My grandpa was the music director while my mom grew up, I have aunts and uncles that are pastors, and I myself was pretty involved in church during my school days. Now that I have been on my own, I am not going to lie, I have gone through periods of time where I did not attend church or even read the Bible like I used to. Looking back on those days, I can say that they were not my smartest days. Now, I have found a new church to call home and I attend and read the Bible more often. I felt pretty good about myself and who I was but I still felt stuck and incomplete. This book forced me to look at my life and examine it. To look at my daily choices and habits that create my lifestyle. Seven months ago someone, who I look up to and value their opinion greatly, told me some of the things that they did not agree with in my life. Granted it was based on how I looked on facebook, it was still valid. At the time, I was upset and sad that that person thought those things about me, but I can't deny I was that person. Since then, I have been trying to better that appearance, but I started Grad School and have been more focused on that. After reading this book, I realize that my habits and my priorities are up to no one but me. I thought if I did my best in school then that would bring happiness. Well, I made all A's and now I am concerned with this next set of classes so the happiness has worn off. I realize now that was a distraction in my life that was keeping me from growing closer to God. The only way to be truly happy is through Him, not by things of this world. From here on out, I am allowing all of you to hold me accountable. I need to makeover myself and start living like a true follower of Christ. I know I will fall short, but as long as I continue to pursue God then I will continue to grow. All that matters is how God sees me, but it really freaked me out because if that was how that person saw me then I was not at all ready to be before the Lord. I want people to look at me and there be no doubt in their mind that I am a Christian.

Bad News Bears...

As most of you know, or maybe you don't, I don't know if you do or not, but I am a very positive person. If something is wrong in life or bothering me, then only my family and close friends know about it. That being said, most of you don't know that I have been struggling for the past 7 months with this absolutely horrible pain in my left lower back and side area. The pain started off as just annoying and uncomfortable. Then, last September, I ended up in the ER after spending two hours sitting on the bathroom floor at work with a small fan and a water bottle while sick to my stomach from the intensity of the pain. The hospital gave me morphine and some fluids and were positive I was passing a kidney stone. After hours in the hospital and scans and blood and urine tests, they concluded that there were no signs of stones or any infection. The doctor pretty much told me he was clueless as to what it was and to go get my ovaries checked out.
Long story short, I go see the gyno a few times and do more tests and sonograms and everything looks normal. The next step: Laparoscopic Surgery! Basically she wants to go in with a scope in my stomach to see on the outside how my organs look and if that will bring a conclusion. I know some people say "Why are you freaking out? This is just a minor surgery" well yes, it is, but still! They want to knock me unconscious and cut me open to probe around in there! I am more worried about the unconsciousness. I do not like to be unable to control my body. I have been given serious pain meds and muscle relaxers over my time and I never take them because they make you feel like you are not yourself. So, the thought of being literally knocked out freaks me out. I have never had surgery before except my wisdom teeth taken out but i dont count that. That didnt involve cutting your stomach and searching your organs that keep you functioning in life.
The surgery is scheduled for Jan 27th so please keep me in your prayers because I am a little nervous and scared that I will do this and then still have no solution to the problem.

I know that the Lord will not give me anything I can not handle so I am drawing even closer during this time when I need to feel His arms around me. This is one of my favorite verses and I read it daily to remind myself to trust that everything will be fine.

"Dont be afraid. I am with you. Dont tremble with fear. I am your God. I will make you strong, as I protect you with my arm and give you victories."
-Isaiah 41:10

Happy New Year!

I can not believe it is already 2011! I am so excited about this year to come. I am planning for a change in location and I CAN NOT wait! I am so excited to move but on the flipside, I am going to miss my friends and family soooo much! My favorite moments have been just goofing off with family or friends and the relationships I have with my favorite people. I know making new friendships will be hard but I am hopeful. I already know what church I will attend in the new city and I am excited to build relationships there. It is a small church that meets in an elementary school at the moment, but that is what I love about it. Everyone knows everyone else and it feels like a family :) It is called Apostles Church in NYC and is lead by JR Vassar. I attended the last time I was visiting the city and I loved it! I really feel like things are going to work out with this move. I wanted to move years back but things just didnt work out. This time I feel like this is what I am supossed to do. I pray about it constantly and I am excited for the fall when I move!